and I really don't know where to start.

I've been really down these past weeks. I hate this spring. A lot of people have lied to me. Why can't they understand, that you could tell the truth, because it has been about so little things. And another thing is, that people has been telling me too much. And so I know too much. And other people start asking questions. It's a good thing I'm a bad liar. And time to time, the truth that lying and not telling the whole truth, makes me sick! I feel dizzy.

Sometimes I feel I'm in a fucking cage. Fortunately I did something at last. My relationship with my boyfriend started to get ill. But I was too frustrated and tired to do anything about it. So I left him, after almost 4 years.

So now I'll be looking for a new apartment. Hopefully I'll find a good one here in Tampere, because I would really like to go through my training to become a car painter.

Another thing about my school.. I think I'm seriously falling in love with a boy from there. And I'm happy to know about his feelings about me. He is one stunning and wonderful person. And cute too .

So despite all the bad things happened to me and people around me, I feel pretty good. And relieved. Really REALLY relieved.